Gosh! Didn't realise it had been so long since I last wrote some shitty things on xanga. I laugh so much on what I've written! Sound so like a kid (even it's only like 4 month's ago thing)!
Well I'm bored, brain's melting on Immunology essay that I need to hand in on Fri, but I'm completely stucked. I have a performance in the Royal Albert Hall tomorrow evening so I need to at least get most of it done tonight. Luckily no class tomorrow so can still try to finish it before the concert.
Sleepless these days again, too stressed and worried about uni work. I don't know why but this year seems to be worse and easier to detect. I remembered over the past 3 years in my BSc I did have such horrible stress and pressure too, but when I looked back, they didn't feel as bad as this year! I suffered from not sleeping for over 3 days and rushing 3 essays in 2 nights and I was still fine (Well maybe not, but I can't remember). This year everything seems doubling worse, stress and pressure! It's more easier to feel and observe. Don't know why, maybe it's a MSc... But haven't been able to sleep and rest proper - that's why always tired. Brain doesn't take order. What I want to do is what I ought to do but physically don't want to do. Battling within my poor little brain and end up sleepless... Gosh I hate myself, feel like wasting so much time!
Just realised that this Easter holiday will be the only and very last long holiday I'll ever have for the rest of my life - Scary! I tried to make it more fun and make full use of it, but then realise the workload I have over Easter makes it impossible for me to enjoy it (even it'll be my last holiday ever!)! Sigh...
I'm really fed up with uni work, never ends... I'm tired of essays and presentations. I need a break, but I also want my holidays...
Always always... Too much to do, never got enough time.
Phil is coming to stay for the weekend during Easter and we're going make-up shopping which will be nice. Will also do summer clothes shopping with Sacha which is also great. But I'll just only be watching - can't afford anything...
Flatmate Chris drove me and Sayuri to the countryside away from London city last Sunday which was really really nice! He drove me to where I haven't been before - Buckinghamshire and Windsor! He has a very posh BMW Sports car! Wow! That was my hightlight for my past... 3 months (Since I came back from Hong Kong?)?! I hope he'll take us again  , will you, Chris?
Hm... Don't know whatelse to say really. Hey come on, I won't be here (Xanga) if I'm not bored. I'd have done so much other things and not wasting my time here right? Just that I'm really bored, sick and tired with my uni work and essays never seem to have an end. But still need to get it done by tomorrow (hopefully before the concert). And another 1 is coming due in coming Monday! Nice!
Ok, better try and get back to work. Really very unmotivated...
Sorry, nothing really exciting to report yet on Xanga. I'm still lonely moody boringly fatty miserably single. Well what's the point of mentioning those Mr Wrongssssssss yeah?
I need a break I need a break I need a break. I want to sleep properly, I want to rest properly, I want to stop the battle in my brain...
Bye now! | 
Cried to myself last night, finally... Burst out into tears, drown myself in my own tears... Need a good old cry... Just need it, I don't know why...
!! Can't wait for them to get married. You see, it's such a nice thing to eye-witness your friend finally find their true-love to spend the rest of their lives with
. And by this time, you either are too happy to remember that you're miserably single, or how much you wish to be like them...
Happy for the couples... I truly do! Congratulations!!!!!!!!
!!